Ramblings Laced With Hysteria

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I'm Twilight Tempest

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My final year at Hogwarts

[/color] begins. && this year I was, more or less, forced back to school. Not in a violent way, of course. && not by my father either. He is laying in a bed at St Mungo's as some sort of poison courses through his veins. I would never admit it aloud, but perhaps on paper it will not look so devastating... I know it's only a matter of time before I lose him.

I am not the neglected, cruel && cold hearted daughter. Quite the contrary. I am not wishing that my father leave the Earth but merely looking at reality. For if he does go, all my dreams go. I have to learn to grow up. No longer will I have someone to depend upon && look up to. A scary concept to the mind of a girl who is a princess in her father's eyes.

The less thought, said && written about that matter the better.



I have one year left && no idea what to do when I leave school. After all the Junior Death Eaters[/color] are not going to house and feed me. I need to find my calling. There has always been a tug on my heartstrings in the direction of the Department Of Mysteries. Only problem there is I'd have to cut myself off from all other life forms. Honestly I have never seen anyone in that Department socialize with others.

I know, for a fact, that most of my fellow Slytherins will live off the wealth of their families and do the odd jobs, here and there. But I want to be able to show people that I am not the typical Slytherin && that I can pull my weight like any other person

Perhaps this is the year for change.[/blockquote]

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The one place I thought I'd get some peace. Picture the scene; The sun is setting, the sky is clear && all the rowdy students are packed into the Great Hall for dinner. I decided to take a trip out to the Quidditch Pitch just to get away from everyone.

No such luck.

Joshua Bothelo had decided to take a trip out there also. Now, is it too much to ask for people to leave me alone? I had no objections to him being there but when you buzz around me like a fly and then ask to see my Quidditch skills I become a little peeved.

I agreed of course. I mean, I wanted to show him what I was made of. Should have guessed the pratt was a seeker the was he was poncing about on his broom like a pansy. He let the snitch && one bludger go.

I have to admit it is hilarious watching people when they don't know how I play the game. Angering the bludger before smacking it at it's target. He was obviously confused by my play until I finally hit it at him. Missed his head but caught his ankle.

Ok, so a felt a little bad afterwards, but he went off to the hospital wing to get it sorted. && I got the Quidditch Pitch back to myself.

I think I may join the Quidditch Team.

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Rydell O'Connell. He's a Ravenclaw guy I met today when I was kicked out of History Of Magic.

It was a warm day, surprisingly, so I thought I'd just bunk off to the courtyard. He was there reading a book, but had obviously taken a break. For a Ravenclaw I must admit he has a sharp tongue. Speaks his mind, as I saw, calling those on free period && lounging about 'moron's'.

He appreciates the fact I'm a Metamorphagus. =D

The poor guy does burn easily though. I mean, he can't have been out on the grounds for long and he was going red. I offered to help him out. You know, just look for some spells and stuff but he seemed pretty determined to do it on his own. But I said I'd pick up a few books && he agreed.

We had a good bitch about love && relationships && just how stupid they are.

He had the nerve to reject a troll shape cloud. How very well dare he!

All in all the guy seems like a sound person. And I am kinda hoping we'll be good mates.

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Classes start in half an hour. && I am shattered. Last night was one of those nights where I just couldn't sleep. No matter how much I tried.

I buggered off to the Astronomy Tower to gaze at the stars and ponder life. Guess who turns up at the Tower... Rydell. Normally I'd just tell him where to go, but for some reason I can't snap at Rydell. He's like Nigel, though he doesn't know me that well.

He was sweet enough to give me his robes as I was stupid enough to come out in just a dressing gown. We just sat talking about stuff. It was nice to just be able to talk to someone and not feel any pressure.

We both went down to the kitchens afterwards, to grab a bite to eat. && I found out why her burns easily. Rydell's a vamp. I only found out because I drank from his goblet of blood. But his blood supply has finished. I offered my blood but he won't take it.

We're friends and he said he'd stick by me and I'll stick by him. No one else is gonna find out about his other side. Not unless he wants them to know.

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Right now, I'm really hurt && confused. I got the letter from St Mungo's. Dad's gone. It this empty space inside me now that feels all cold && bare, that serves as a constant reminder that he will no longer hug me. I am no longer anyone's princess.

I only confirmed the letter by visiting the hospital to see him. I've never seen my Dad look so weak. I don't think I can write much more, about this, apart from to say I will arrage his funeral soon.



Although my heart is broken it seems to think about one other person...

Louis Weasley

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Why? I have no idea... Ok so that may be a small lie.

He was there when I got the news. Louis was the one that made sure I didn't just comepletely lose it. For once I can honestly say I was happy to have the Gryffindor git near by. We sat talking and I felt a new appreciation for him.

&& I don't know what came over me when we apparated back to the village. I know for a fact I was not thinking with my head, but more with my heart. I kissed him. && for that split second, despite all the pain I was going through, I felt whole.

But I refuse to fall for him like the others and be left broken. I shall do my best to avoid Louis. Regardless of what the heart wants.[/color][/blockquote]

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